Can't carry on
I don't know how to carry on on a world where I am completely alone.
In a foreign country with no means to communicate. Stuck here. And then left butchered by a surgeon here who forgot how to speak English afterwards leaving me damaged for life.
My hobbies are gone because I'm partly disabled now... Nobody will hire me and my career is dead. Language barriers and I'm damaged.
I speak to nobody all day. I have nobody. My only communication really is when I go to physiotherapy.
So depressed I don't want to go anymore.
Installed every friendship app you can think of. Nobody wants friends with a foreigner. Sending message after message after message.
The culture here is that of closed doors.
Often felt alone in life and struggled.
But this is far beyond that. No family. No friends. No communication. No career. And then butchered having my health.. all I had left stolen from me.
I can't cope anymore.
@intelligentPond307 you know perhaps you made the wrong move here. if you go back to the country you were originally from, would you be welcomed? And safe with people you know??
Most of my family was murdered from the country I came from. I had no choice but to leave. So not an option to go back.
The last person (x fiance) I had left was also kind enough to punch me hard enough to send me flying across the room. Doesnt' even have police.
Financially ruined now aswell which makes it extremely hard to move to another country and have no means to travel around to try find a better country/place.
@intelligentPond307 wow! I'm really sorry sweetie 😥 I'll keep you in my prayers ❤
@intelligentPond307 I am sorry to hear that.
Hey, I’m sorry that this has happened to you, if you would like I will be your friend, online at least. I don’t think that we can share personal information on this app.
Thank you. Yeah this app is strange. I still don't really know how to use it much.
I actually timed myself this week. The max I speak in a day is about two hours if I'm lucky. That's usually when I go to the physiotherapist or a doctor or something. Generally people don't speak English here.
Today went to the dentist. Sat in my room and that about it.
Truly sucks.
@intelligentPond307 Don’t give up now. If you give up today you might miss making a best friend tomorrow.
I just can't find a way to win.
I came here with so much hope for a better life. That's what always kept me going. Now I finally reached the other side....
And every single dream and goal I can't achieve here. Even something as small as a friend.
If daily life is me being alone and unemployed waiting for the day I have no place to live even... I don't know.
This is not living 😔
I hope you found a way forward? 🤞
@intelligentPond307 I did find a way forward, and I believe you can too. I have gone through a lot of really hard things in my life, up to the point of almost taking it, but I didn’t because I knew someone could understand what I was going through. I am not alone in my struggles, and you aren’t either. You might never meet this person, but they exist.
Another thing, happiness wouldn’t exist without an opposite. Happiness can only exist because sadness exists. Hurt has to happen before there is healing. It will get better. Hurt comes and healing after, just wait your time for healing will come. Things have to get worse before they get better, and I promise it does. It will get better, you have to hold on until then. You are not alone in the hurt, and you won’t be alone in the healing. ❤️-->💔-->❤️🩹-->❤️
