Someone please respond to me
I don’t know what to do anymore I’ve been depressed for the better part of the last 3 years. Lately it’s really taking over and effecting my marriage my job my relationship with my son and the rest of my family. I don’t feel like getting out of bed most days. And when I do my temper is so short with my wife and kid. When at work I’m not interacting with anyone. I’m barely focused on my work/ barely doing my job. I dont seem to care if I get fired but I do care cause ik I won’t be able to pay my bills. But that not stopping me from calling off or just not showing up. I’m scared I’m gonna lose my marriage but I also feel like it’ll be one less responsibility. I’m scared and I’m sad and I don’t have anyone to talk to. Well I can talk to my sibs or my mom I guess but I also don’t want anybody in my business. I try talking to my wife but it nvr comes out right. I had a dream I committed suicide and I was so happy. Idk what that means. I just wanna feel better. I just wanna go back to being happy or at least not feeling like nothing matters. I can’t find the purpose anymore. I don’t wanna fee like this. Please help me.