Hallucinations
(bit of a vent below. tw for blood mentions)
i don't know what's real and what isn't anymore. is that bug real? are those steps real? that blood in the sink... is it really there? the blood on my hands... where has it come from? those voices, that music, that smell of perfume... are they real?
who knows anymore? i don't. i can't shower without feeling blood on my hands or seeing it on the walls. i can't sleep in my own room without seeing him. can't just exist in my own house without hearing something...
i don't know how to cope anymore. it keeps getting better, and then worse, and then better, and then worse again...
@f1nd3rzk33p3rz
Hi friend. Thanks for sharing this with us, it takes a lot of strength to be so honest.
That sounds really scary and confusing, I can't imagine how you must be feeling these days. And having it seem to get better before getting worse again must be so frustrating and frightening.
I hope your pain eases soon.
Sending warmth 💜🌿
I know what you mean. I know I’m slowly going crazy. I’ve had memories of things that I have done. But two of them have been confirmed by other people as being false.
That doesn’t make the memories go away and how many memories have I had that are “fake” to others?
Are those voices and conversations real?
Is there really someone or something trying to break into my home? I mean, I’m scared to be in my own house.
I don’t know and, like you, how to cope.
Hello @f1nd3rzk33p3rz ! What you have shared sounds really terrifying. 😢 But, I hope that your situation eases. I hope that you can also get support near you. Do you think you can reach out to a psychologist or social worker?