2022 10 04 Resistance

@meanderthal74

Hi! Thank you for sharing! EMDR can be felt as traumatizing for people to go through since it makes us relive our bad memories and it's understandable that it causes you to feel anxious about it. There are some different opinions regarding EMDR and that it's nout suitable for everyone. I think a good way to go about it is to communicate with your therapist about how you are feeling and that will help you therapist make the best out of this expereince as possible <3 Best of luck!

I went to the appointment at the new therapist, Renee, and she was a good listener. She asked good questions, too. She’s a little older than me and says she has no problems talking about bipolar, mania, hyper sexuality, etc. She is going to partner with an EMDR licensed therapist and the two of them will create a plan of action for me.

I feel a lot better. I like the team approach!

After about an hour (I went a bit over because I like to talk about my issues :)) I felt good about her and the way we are heading. Is it bad that during a counseling session like these I worry that I will overwhelm the therapist?? Ugh, there’s that anxiety, even in therapy.

I tested to see if she could handle some of my deepest thoughts & actions sexually and she said she would let me know if she was uncomfortable with anything we talked about. I mentioned my religiously abusive past and she said she could help with that, too. I mentioned trauma in the family, my manic swings and lows, and nothing seemed to phase her, yet she was caring and warm and empathetic. I mentioned my desire to express myself in my new found love of naturism and she said as long as I was not hurting anyone or doing anything illegal that I was fine.

I go back next week. I feel relieved.

I am Bipolar and have a very difficult past, as well. While researching and exploring coping skills, I came across this methods of releasing trapped emotions. It's complicated to explain, but without advertising- it worked for me. It's called The Emotion Code. I think it's Dr. Bradley Nelson. I would recommend checking into that. It's definitely unconventional, but for those of us that get triggered discussing and exploring our past experiences and emotions, it could be a great coping tool. Good Luck- I hope Peace finds you.

I am so very pleased that you took this step and so very proud !

I have been offered EMDR but i keep refusing because my trust issues are massive. So, well done and heartfelt praise for your bravery. I do understand that repressed memories need to be processed, but it isn't an easy thing to do. I think you have done brilliantly and i would encourage you to keep going.

The people from the past do not deserve to still have a hold over our lives now. I won't swear....but well f.....g done and i am super proud and pleased that you have started your healing journey.

Your life deserves to be better, so go and grab it....no matter how difficult it may feel at times.

May your courage give you the wings to fly xxxx