I'm laying it all out here. Feel like I'm going insane.
I'm from the UK, 33, male. Diagnosed with Asperger's at 8.
It has made it hard to make friends. I struggled to get through school but eventually I got a degree.
That's when the trouble started. None of the companies I could find within my degree's discipline would hire me. I volunteered and kept searching. In the end I asked a company called "Ways Into Work" for help. They send me on two courses that were completely outside my skillset. In the end I went on disability and have been on it ever since.
I have been told these are just excuses.
Here's the other part of the problem: I've never had a girlfriend. Never even kissed. Always felt like I had to prove myself worthy first but I never could. I have nothing to be confident about and I always hear how women don't want the unemployed.
Apparently there's an autism-to-incel pipeline. I'd rather die than be one of those people.
It feels like I'm doomed to be alone and unaccomplished. Am I blaming my condition? Possibly. All attempts to remedy the situation kept hitting walls.
Most of my life has been a struggle to manage anxiety and now even meds aren't stopping it.
@modestWriter18
Of course you feel it is an impossible journey and with autism spectrum some may have a harder time then others on spectrum do. There are many without this extra obstacle who also do not have someone or having issues finding work that in the field they studied. This would increase anyone's anxiety and frustration.
I know it is easier said then done but not focusing on what is not going well and worried about it embrace each day or week and do something new. When we are open to new things and embrace it it is a better way to live then placing blame and being frustrated in all that is not going like we wanted it to.
@modestWriter18
Hi there. Sorry to hear you’ve not been able to secure work. This must feel incredibly frustrating for you especially when you’ve worked so hard and now have your degree. You mentioned volunteering, is this perhaps something you could consider again? It could be a good chance to meet new people, build up skills, see new opportunities. On a personal level it can be good for confidence and wellbeing. Who knows, there may even be a girl you get to know along your journey…
Best wishes.
