difficulty in communication
i'm autistic & English is not my first language
i can talk nonstop in my mother language, but when it comes to English, it's hard for me to even organize a sentence.
i have already passed my IELTS test, and have no problem with reading English texts, while i still have communicating difficulties, cuz after switching language, i have to think about what to say, which word to use, and the grammar! it makes my brain overloaded!
During the IELTS oral test, i have to memorize and recite the long material i've prepared already, cuz it could cause meltdown when i tried to gather words in my brain & organize them into a sentence..
i can nearly imagine how embarrassed i will be in the English-speaking country after a year😰 Or can i use my keyboard or AAC tools to communicate with people there..