I totes get you. I'm over 65, self diagnosed with adult autism spectrum, however I may be ADHD as well when constructively assessing my life and current living conditions.
I am above average IQ but not a genius.
I've been misdiagnosed with bipolar (common amongst adult autistic spectrum w/ADHD.
Being neurodivergent I've been masking all my life to "fit in", however in getting to the "me" inside all those masks it's clear I have much more work to do on the ADHD side.
I'm not lazy, I don't fear people, I'm comfortable in my own skin, and this is after much work on myself.
I do hoard, neglect to clean up because I'm overwhelmed easily and overzealously pickup new projects.
I love animals so you can guess where that's going. 1 retired service dog, 1 rescue. About 22 cats (indoor/outdoor, 22 goats (Nigerian dwarf) which I work with on my farm. This provides milk, cheese, soap, meat and crafting materials. I do sell some for either cash or trade.
I'm finally ok living alone as I'm more secure in me.
It's a balancing act but then again so is life.
Things are messy around me but it's my mess so I guess I just get overwhelmed. I've considered a maid but I refuse to subject someone to my horrendous mess.
All in all, just keep seeking ways to improve is my 2 cents.
P.S. I've come to realize I adore my solitude since I've accepted being neurodivergent.