Wish I could be closer to people
I see all these people who I love have these really close bonds and relationships with their other friends, which makes me so so happy to see, but it's like even though I love them more than I can explain, I can't be as close to those people as I see them being in their other relationships. And it just makes me feel really sad and kind of a bit worthless. And I am genuinely happy on the surface but it's like on a deeper level everday when I wake up, even though I appreciate life so so much, I slightly feel like I'm not happy to be alive and like I shouldn't be here, just because I feel kind of empty and numb and almost desensitised to things, and I think I'm like a really really bad person. And throughout the day I feel like I'm trying too hard to be happy around people, like I'm kind of putting on an act. I just have this really big wish that I wish I could be more important to people!!
Or I don't know if 'be more important' are the right words exactly, but I guess just mean more to them you know!
@lavenderLion2361
Just be you, don't think too hard about trying to please the other person because that will only hurt you more. You can also try telling them about how you are feeling inside and what you are going through, maybe that can help you. Keeping it in will hurt you. Things will get better, and you will have friends that will love and support you! ❤️
@lavenderLion2361
I'm sorry you feel this way. I understand. I also feel happy whenever I see friend groups hanging out, but on the inside, I also feel sad because I think that I will never have a close relationship with someone. Because of my social anxiety, I suck at conversations, and I feel empty like I have no bond. It sucks being lonely for years, I really feel your pain.
Someday we will have a close bond with someone. We have to think positively and visualize what we want in life. It may not come very soon, but it will happen. ❤️
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@lavenderLion2361
Your welcome! ❤️ I hope you are ok.