S.A. Prevents me from help
DanDev
March 18th, 2016
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I feel like [Edited by @Dillion for inappropriate language]. I have severe depression and a mix of generalized and social anxiety. It took me MONTHS to even prepare myself, and finally to go and make an appointment to psychiatrist today. The moment I stepped into the crowdy queue for registration I had one of the strongest sa attacks recently. I just couldn't make it and ran out of building with a sense of defeat. I can't even go for help because of my anxiety. I will try with phone calling the registration but phone calls scare me as well. I fucking hate it. It took me so long to do that, and when I tried to get treatment my anxiety prevented me from it again. I feel absolutely defeated now.