I had my first real panic attack and now I feel so much better
So. Against my better judgment, I ate a brownie laced with THC last night, even though I know pot makes me go into a state of panic. I was already pretty much in a state of panic so I thought, "What else could possibly happen?"
I have episodes of panic that can last for weeks to months at a time. It's not quite as bad as it could possibly be but.. imagine anxiety and stress as a mountain, with a panic attack being the peak. I live in that area right below the peak, having to stare down at the drop all the time. I can't eat, throw up, can't think about anything but anxiety, and basically become consumed by it.
Last time I climbed up to that peak. While I was high, someone said something that was profoundly disturbing, I excused myself to the restroom, and before I knew it, I was sitting on the bathroom floor wondering if I needed to go to the hospital. I was hyperventilating, my chest was skipping beats (I have arrhythmia), and I was starting to see stars. I managed to pull myself up, stumbled into the dining area of the restaurant we were in, and tell my bf that I was about pass out. I collapsed into a chair, got me some water, and I attempted to keep from fainting while trying to figure out what was happening. I decided I was having a panic attack.
Today I feel so much better than I did. It's hard to explain it but.. I feel like I finally climbed over the peak. It's like the tension has been lifted. Has anyone else felt this way?
Panic attacks can be super scary, but the most important thing is to remember you have to breathe. Close your eyes and picture a calming scene.
@WhataDime713 Im glad to hear that you are feeling better and have finally gotten over the peak of the anxiety. It sounds intense what you went through, anxiety can cause many physical symptoms, fortunately panic attacks do not last long, the body cannot keep up that leel of adrenaline for long and so the body then goes into a state of come dowm, where the muscles relax and and the brain relaxes and your go into a state of tiredness and relaxation, this is a good thing as your body needs to recover from such intense stress on your system. I think this is what you are feeling now. How have you been since you wrote this post?
@sunshineKitty58 Sadly, my doesn't recover like that. Maybe when I sleep, but I've been in intense states of anxiety for up to a month and a half. The amount waxes and wanes from throwing up and shivering at its most intense to just being in a dissociative state at its least.
But anyways, I've upped my meds and it's seems like it's over now. :)
@WhataDime713 Wow that sounds so rough. *hugs* I've only had a panic attack for at most a few hours/ a day, but I do understand the feeling of the peak and going over it.