bouncing back real quick
I feel like crying because I am very afraid and paranoid. I tried to talk to someone about it but by the time they replied I am suddenly "fine"; it's as if I wasn't panicking and over thinking less than 10 minutes ago. As great as that is, I know that it's not normal. I bounced back as if nothing happened but I know that it's probably just my mind sweeping everything under the refrigerator. I also feel bad because I tried to message people I trust but by the time they replied I'm already "fine" right so now i don't know what to say and I feel really bad for bothering them. I also don't know how to talk to people because I really want to do it and talk to someone I trust but at the same time I feel like i'm bothering them / i know they don't deserve to have my weird thoughts dumped at them. sorry for my english i just gave up
@soph1a
This happens to me, too. I feel really bad when someone asks me how I'm feeling but by then I'm either already fine or just don't want to talk about it anymore.
If you're on here, maybe it will help if you send personal requests to online listeners? You might want to consider trying out long-term support, too, since sometimes even personal requests take time. (If you're like me and worry about being uunsure if you can stick with long-term, try it nonetheless, only inform the listener you get. If anxiety creeps in and tells you that's bothersome to them, I'll tell you--and maybe the listeners would too--that it's not. In fact, they ought to understand, especially if you already informed them beforehand about being unsure or prone to being inconsistent.)
Offsite I think people would appreciate being informed, too. :)
Also, I think that this is not necessarily the unhealthy kind of sweeping-under-the-refridgerator. There are times you need to think about things. But sometimes you're making yourself even more worried by worrying about not being worried. XD
We're on the same boat. In my case, besides not wanting to bother other people with my problems, I also don't want to look weak in front of them. It's difficult to open up to people in real life for me. That is why I am here, talking to people who can understand me and don't know me personally, so I don't have to worry about how I look in front of them.
