Why would these things bother me?

Were you sexually abused as a child? Did you do something extreme w/a man that now makes you uncomfortable around men and being yourself? I used to escort for a short period of time and after I started getting serious w/my now husband, I couldn't dress like I used to, completely changed my style of dressing in fact, and sometimes he asks me why I don't dress "sexy" anymore. Well .. it reminds me of that horrible period of my life. I forgot the last time I wore a skirt and some stilettos, but I just feel awkward now dressing like that. I don't even feel comfortable wearing lingerie to bed. I just wear an old t-shirt. But, somehow you have to let go of w/e is bothering you .. hiding behind all those clothes? Wearing a mask doesn't take away the pain, I learned that a long time ago. Show off your beauty. That first step will make you feel a lot better. :)

Nothing bad happened like that thankfully. But I guess I am afraid of turning out like the people I went to high school with. They didn't give one hoot about modesty and keeping hearts in one piece.