Today I am feeling?
@Teri13 i know how you feel...i struggle too every day.. and i wonder everyday why it is so difficult...i get an answer that life is difficult and for some reason i refuse to believe that..i don't know why..i think we make it difficult but it is so dificult not to..so, difficult, is the word for today! damn...
once again let down
it was hours of waiting that person didn't show up i feel abandoned and isolated i don't understand nothing no more is it me why do i do it to myself no one likes me why do i try or even bother with it had enough of being treated like this don't now how much more I can take can't cope no more with nothing
it was hours of waiting that person didn't show up i feel abandoned and isolated i don't understand nothing no more is it me why do i do it to myself no one likes me why do i try or even bother with it had enough of being treated like this don't now how much more I can take can't cope no more with nothing
@tallSugar4889
Im really sorry to hear this ... having that happen sucks, theres no other way to say it.
Obviously, you are not doing anything wrong when you try to reach out to make up with a friend and that person doesnt show up. Thats on them, not you.
so why do i feel like i am to blame and i have done something wrong why does this only happen to me i feel really embarrassed and stupid at the moment @AbbyHarris1976
@tallSugar4889
Because thats what happens when youre in a relationship where the other person is behaving like a narcissist and dragging you down. Ive been there recently and had to make my concerns known. If my feelings and concerns were not going to be respected, then I would walk away because its a toxic relationship - and were better than that.
Its not easy but you have to understand that youre better than toxic relationships and its not on you even if it feels like it is. I originally joined 7Cups because I was losing a friendship where the other person was basically implying it was my fault and therefore I was feeling like hell ... but I stuck with 7 Cups and with posting on here and found support from new friends here as well as new friends made on my meetup events here in Chicago.
well... horrible right now I guess. Picking one mood is really damn hard when I'm switching emotions and feelings like crazy.
Things with school haven't been working out and that is really dragging me down. Lots of stress, lots of hating myself for being unproductive, lots of ephoria when work is finaly done for the day haha.
Summary: All over the place haha
Today I am feeling blank. Like I'm on autopilot and yet still so close to crashing. I wanted to snap at everyone and it's becoming an everyday feeling. My close friends were annoying me, when really they weren't doing anything wrong and I was the one at fault. I felt like people were staring at me all day and that whenever someone talked to me they were doing it out of pure forced kindness, not because they wanted too. I've tried getting out of that mindset that there are other things worse for others and they're doing find. But it's hard. I have a perfectly fine life and I'm complaining over the most pathetic things that I can't see, to control. I want to talk to people but I don't want them to see me as sad or pathetic, I'm suppose to be the strong one, the happy one. My friend keeps saying that I'm changed and that I used to talk so more and today it just stung. Everyday it stings. Everyday I shave the same blank feeling of sadness that I want change. I just dont have motivation.
Lost. I dont want to feel broken and so emotional all the time. I dont want to talk to someone and have them give me the pity look. I dont want to have issues and I want to be normal.
