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Snowball of disaster

pluckyFarm5111 October 28th, 2017

Does anyone else feel that one problem in their past cause more problems and those new problems cause more problems until life is nothing but a giant snowball of disaster making itself bigger and bigger. I don't mean to blame others for all my problems (as my family constantly accuse me of doing), but I feel that my life got off to a bad start because of bad things my parents did, and I've been trying to dig myself out of an ever growing hole or out from under a giant snowball of problems that keeps growing bigger.

For example, if you are poor because your parents abandoned you at a young age and you had to take low paying jobs to get by, it is hard to get a decent place to live. If you live in bad conditions, you work harder to try to afford a better life and end up getting sick from overwork which causes you to lose money. If you can't afford to replace broken things in your home to keep it tidy, you get depressed and anxious. People criticize you for the state of your home and you get more depressed which makes it harder to stay healthy enough to earn money to repair your home. The longer you struggle, the more shabby your home becomes. The roof leaks, the fridge doesn't keep cold, the floor rots from the leaking fridge, your neighbor reports you for not keeping a neat yard, you get food poisoning because the fridge isn't cold enough, more and more things go wrong with the house and problems get bigger and more numerous every year. That's what my life feels like. And people who had parents who raised them, helped them through school, and even gave them their own houses for free judge me and say I am lazy or that I have a bad attitude. So many bad things have happened, including family members committing violent crimes, that I think no one will believe I didn't make it all up or that I am not imagining things.

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pluckyFarm5111 OP October 28th, 2017

If anyone has the same experience I would like to hear about it just to know I'm not the only one who experiences a negative spiral of disasters. I know that my choices contribute to the course of my life, but I could not choose to avoid things like a violent sibling or a thieving guardian or lack of connections and resources. Does anyone else feel that they are trapped sequence of negative events that is hard to escape from?

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affectionateCurrent5164 October 28th, 2017

@pluckyFarm5111 I hear ya plucky. Sometimes I think someone put a curse on me. Life was pretty good up until 32, then its been pretty sucky since then, maybe its something I did, bad karma coming back, but every New Years I wish the curse would be over.

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pluckyFarm5111 OP October 28th, 2017

@affectionateCurrent5164 Thanks for sharing. I feel better knowing someone else had a similar experience.

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