My Second Wind!

I have taken sometime to think and reflect this week, on how I will face my fears and control my recent bout of anxiety, I have decided to do the right thing by ME, and face it head on.

It's my return to work tomorrow after 18 months being on the sick, but what lurks behind the doors, is the recent return of someone who played God with my life nearly 10 years ago, and turned my world upside down. I've been running to long, this person has taken more than enough from me, I will not allow anymore, they will not dictate my thoughts, feelings or future, so I intend to confront this once and for all, show I can and will survive despite my feelings on the inside which are invisible to the naked eye, and use my anxieties as an advantage and hope they will carry me through rather than knock me down.

You see, the thing I have learned about anxiety, it never really goes away, but we can accept and learn to control it, worrying about things that are going to happen, things that are beyond your control are only going to escalate your anxiety even further, the fact that worrying doesn't stop things happening, it clouds your judgements and drains your energies, instead of using your energies to find your tactics for managing your situations. (even though my heart is pounding right now, my hands are shaking, I'm gonna post this anyway, because usually, I'd just delete it!)

So yeah, I intend to use my anxieties and look upon them as strength, as courage, use them to my advantage, face my fear and be thankful I have found my second wind