Job Anxiety and Depression
So Sunday I was having the best morning! We took the boat out around the bay. Drank little champagne and I'd made fresh croissants. It was sunny and beautiful. We went up on a beach and I laid out listening to our favorite radio program. My husband and I had the greatest time, then..... Then we got back home and there it was waiting on my phone. A text message from work. I work seasonally. I've been with the company for 6 years. I've an out standing record and a wonderful reputation. It's a boutique cruise line. They are regulated by the US Coast Guard. I work in the hotel side of things, but because I work on the vessels, my medication became an issue. They won't offer me summer work until I'm cleared of my medications. That I pretty much no longer have a job is killig me inside. It was the job that lead to my breakdown 6 months ago, but I'm trying to understand from their point of view. At the same time, to hear it in a text, not a even a phone call. Oh, and to make it worse, the person who sent it to me is one of my closest friends in the company. I've barely left my bed for two days. I haven't been out of my pajamas since Monday. I try to force myself to do somethings. I try to smile, but I just can't. I just needed a safe place to put all this. Thank you whoever you that might be reading this.
@BradleyK This sounds extremely upsetting, overwhelming. I can imagine the hurt that you must be experiencing. You being barely able to smile or carry on with daily chores, there must be a lot of thoughts bothering you constantly throughout the day, making you feel exhausted to the extent that you don't feel like anything
@BradleyK I'm so sorry that you're going through this, it sound really hard. Just know that you're not alone and that there's people out here that are listening and that sends you strength!
@BradleyK
Losing a job is devastating - especially when it's done through a text message, and by a friend, too. But, let me ask you, if this is the job that led to your breakdown, why are you upset about losing it? (Sorry, I'm putting my analytical hat on - or, since you're in Mexico, let's call it the analytical sombrero!) :) You can finally be finished with that chapter of your life that hurt you, and move on to this amazing future that you have yet to discover.
@thoughtfulmomma You always know what to say. I've been thinking of leaving for a while, but with our Nomadic lifestyle it's hard to find a job that allows for that. I have applied for disability in addition to my mental issues I also have a physical condition, Dupuytrens Contracture. We'll see. There's also a number of sites dedicated to remote positions. It's just finding one I can do. We've also got an idea still developing. I think it was the initial shock of it all.
@BradleyK
As long as you have Wifi on the boat when you're there, there are TONS of remote jobs out there. I work with so many different people working remotely doing all kinds of different things, not to mention all the entrepreneurs doing their own things from wherever they are.
Here are a couple of good sites: www.virtualvocations.com and remote.co
Plus, the idea of doing your own thing - cool! It's exciting and scary and exciting!