I feel trapped in a small room with no where to go
I was having anxiety issues at my factory job to the point where I felt like the office people were out to get rid of me so I started a new job less than 3 weeks ago and I had 2 panic attacks the last 2 days. Yesterday I have to leave in the middle of a shift. It felt like the walls were closing in and there was too much noise and I couldn't keep up. Then it happened I went to go lift a box that I just got done packing and put it on the pallet and the whole bottom fell out, everything all over the floor. I started to cry. Honestly its not even a job I wanted but with the area I live in you have 2 choices for work for someone who may or may not have a degree, factory or retail. My boyfriend hasn't really been supportive in any of this. He just says that I just need to be stronger and get over it. I talked to hr today about going to another facility where its a little slower but its not the shift my boyfriend wants me to work and thats if my move gets approved. He start all in on his job, and his career, and saying he knows I can't do it. Worse part is I can't leave him, I have no where to go. I can't afford a place by myself, and the area doesn't have any apartments really with covid not that they accept pets anyways. I really don't have any friends, any I try to make stop talking to me with in a few months. I feel like I'm in a prison of anxiety and it keeps getting smaller and smaller.
@Peacecraft....I am so sorry your suffering with so much anxiety. I get it, I left my job because of mine. But you reached out to HR for help to move to a different spot. That's great give yourself a hug, I couldn't even talk to my HR person because of my anxiety. So anyway I had to get serious help, therapy and meds have improved my issues . I hope my post helps you in some way, your not alone it's really difficult to deal with day in and day out. Your BF probably doesn't understand if he doesn't have serious anxiety. Just put your needs first and do what you need to do for you. Best 💜 ABB
Thank you so much, it helps to talk about it with people going thru the same stuff, people around me don't get it or maybe just don't want to.
I think ppl don't understand what they can't see visually. If you had a cast on your arm ppl would be alot more understanding of that , but when it's anxiety there's no visible signs like a cast so ppl just don't get it. I understand. .....You are strong. Factory work can be tough, but your doing it!! Excellent for you. Be proud of your accomplishments even the little ones. 💜ABB
Update: tonight was my first night one the new shift and department. It went really well. I didn't feel the same pressure of having to get thing done because they were so behind, there is lees noise, and I don't feel like the walls are coming in on mesince there is a lot of room and its a really big building. Plus when my boyfriend was dropping me off he reminded me that I'm new to this and its been a while since I was a newbie so I need to give myself time. Most supportive thing he has said during this whole thing.