Feels like I'm way more damaged than others
ellamenopee
October 19th, 2022
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When I read about others with anxiety or PTSD, I don't understand how they are healing and I'm not, after 24 years of therapy and meds (mediocre mostly). Bipolar 2 is new, but thoughts in my head are faster than I can keep up. I mainly feel alone and hopeless. Due to 40+ yrs of undiagnosed mental health issues, my brain is fried and foggy. I feel like I'm losing this battle to good mental health. I've pushed everyone out of my life, cuz no one understands my racing and worried thoughts. They say they do, but it's clear they don't. Even my therapists have said my issues are too complex and referred me to others! Why am I ok with being unwell as long as I'm not the craziest one?