Feeling like a failure because of my past, makes me anxious of the future.
calmWatermelon413
June 11th, 2022
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I feel that I have one duty in life, to care for my mother. But I didn't study hard and work hard, and played too hard. So now, at 40, I only have a little bit of money left, and I feel that I am in a dead end job with no skills, and most likely I won't be able to do my job in 5 or 10 years because of how physically intensive it is.
So I need to pivot now to some other job, but with no skills is difficult. So i need to develop a skill, but I am not smart, so I don't know what I can pick up. And I need to figure it out soon and develop the skill before I am 45, before it is too late and un-hireable (my country has serious ageism problem).
I feel like I am a massive screw up.