Family gatherings
Yesterday we had a family gathering and I decided to go too, oh dear what a mistake. I act oddly when I'm nervous with people. I act like crazy that everything is allright, and more anxious I get the more I talk. Now I kept on talking all the time. I feel I spoilt the whole party talking all the time. I know it isn't true we have a lovely family and relatives. The worst is, I know there is people who need support and these gatherings are important oppportunity for people to meet. Now I stole all the attention with my nervous chattering. I feel terrible, why can't I just accept I have a terrible social anxiety, and I am too queasy for this kind of situations.Well, I try mindfulness practice and maybe this anxiety gets lighter. After a week or even tomorrow I feel better. If I at least could sleep.