My anxiety has me dying within myself. I stand back to back with the fools and frauds. The mockery in the shadows shall increase. My downfall is with my weakness known. I want my mask to stay stone placid. Yet this evening I broke into deafening laughter. Everything gushed violently from my hollowing heart. All the sickening stress and denial. For an hour without pause, without remorse. My voice echoed throughout the entire house. At the end, I broke when it was done. No heart is hollow when it holds so much hatred and grief. After the troubling breakdown I feel horribly sick. The drastic changes in my emotions has me holding myself still so to not upset the hurricane ravaging my body and mind. If I must listen to more of all this chaos. I will undoubtably crumble and cease existence. My mind, so scrambled, has reduced from even that. My body cold, my beliefs meaningless, my days and nights dull.
