Sudden anxiety to fireworks
Normally I'm fine with fireworks. Independence day is usually pleasant for me. The only thing I had problems with in the past 4ths were people lighting off fireworks not on the 4th or past a reasonable hour. But today (the 3rd) it's bringing me near to tears. My anxiety is sky high (not unlike the fireworks) and I'm very irritable. My neighbors had their party today and kept shooting off the ones that r just a big boom and at one point I screamed cuz I was so surprised by it.
I have ptsd but that's from sexual assaults, not war related or loud noise related...
Y am i suddenly so effected by fireworks?
Idk but I'm getting to be the same way. Stupid people nearby were shooting them off so close and they probably damaged my hearing, my ears hurt slightly after like 10+ blasts and I actually have been quite irritable too.
No wait
I've been pissed.
Like, wishing total hearing loss upon the idiots who decided to blast them off so close to crowds of people.
And the laws that allowed them to do this.
I should have thought about hiding somewhere more soundproof but all I could do writhe in my chair as each blast tore into my ears a bit more.
I guess I hate fireworks now.
I guess I know how dogs feel now.
I'm sorry to hear this, it's stressful when people are doing something like that close to your home with no regard to yourself and your neighbors but I can imagine it's especially stressful when it's been happening for so long. It sounds like you're very tense which you have every right be..I assume you probably haven't been sleeping too well with all of the festivities going on. Try to be kind to yourself, this is a very stressful time and although your PTSD isn't from something like this, this is a very tense situation so be patient and kind with yourself over your tense emotions. Lack of sleep, wondering when they'll stop, and being generally stressed can make you feeling especially tense and on edge which can affect you and your emotions. Try to remember that each day will bring you closer to peace and whenever they start shooting off fireworks try doing something that calms you....watching funny Youtube videos....singing...whatever works for you. I'm sorry you're having to deal with this.
Law enforcement put out that they were "cracking down" on fireworks here,which are all illegal. But yet as they drive through the neighborhood there are folks waiting on the side of the street with fireworks in hand waiting for them to drive past. As they do BOOOOM. Why couldn't the officer just stop,roll down the window and ask them if they needed a lighter or match to ignite it.
