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Mypigjava
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PathStep 13 Compassion hearts19 Forum posts20 Forum upvotes26 Current upvotes26 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2019 Member sinceSeptember 25, 2015
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Sudden anxiety to fireworks
Anxiety Support / by Mypigjava
Last post
 July 5th, 2016
...See more Normally I'm fine with fireworks. Independence day is usually pleasant for me. The only thing I had problems with in the past 4ths were people lighting off fireworks not on the 4th or past a reasonable hour. But today (the 3rd) it's bringing me near to tears. My anxiety is sky high (not unlike the fireworks) and I'm very irritable. My neighbors had their party today and kept shooting off the ones that r just a big boom and at one point I screamed cuz I was so surprised by it. I have ptsd but that's from sexual assaults, not war related or loud noise related... Y am i suddenly so effected by fireworks?
It's so backwards
Depression Support / by Mypigjava
Last post
 June 24th, 2016
...See more Now that my tdoc is back from her med leave and I've been in iop for a few weeks and I've been meeting up with friends more... I'm feeling more depressed. I feel like a failure. Like it's all a waste. I would be better off without it all. I was doing great standing on my own 2 feet. I feel like crying.
Mixing up words
Disability Support / by Mypigjava
Last post
 January 8th, 2018
...See more Idk where this post should be, sorry. Sometimes I screw up words. Like just now I said musky instead musty. I'll be close with the words but it will be one letter or consonant wrong, sometimes it's still a real word just not the word for the situation, sometimes it's not even a word. Is this normal, do other people do this?
Evil world
Depression Support / by Mypigjava
Last post
 June 17th, 2016
...See more Idk where this thread should be. I was watching the news and very nearly started crying. I only kept myself from crying because my mom and sister were there. It's just one terrible thing after another: Orlando shooting, Chicago Police brutality (I live in Chicago burbs), Disney alligator attack on a young boy, etc. Thinking "the world is a terrible place" often leads to a dark vortex for me so I don't wanna go there but things keep getting worse and worse. There's no decency left to the world, people r just out for themselves. How do you peeps cope with the absurdity and horror of this world..?
Can't face it
Depression Support / by Mypigjava
Last post
 June 14th, 2016
...See more Before I started going to IOP, I was doing fine. Making thru each day, functioning, being productive, happy. But now, day 2 of iop, my mood is dropping, I'm hating myself again, not wanting to go to iop... my therapist was even on medical leave so I was standing on my own 2 feet... so y is my mood dropping when I'm in a therapy program?
Is it borderline or not
Personality Disorders Support / by Mypigjava
Last post
 November 8th, 2016
...See more My therapist told me I might have borderline but we haven't been able to talk about it more cuz she's been on medical leave for 3 weeks. I have no friends... well one friend. I've scared away a bunch of other friends. I fear being alone but crave being around people too... like that pink song "leave me alone I'm lonely". My parents recently divorced and I don't talk to my dad anymore. I have a trauma history. I'm 25 and have bipolar, mostly depressive side. I feel like a programmed robot
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