If I put my worries here, will they stay here? (hope hope)

Dear friends, 

I know this is not the official prayer thread so you can leave this paragraph if you prefer, but ...  Would y'all pray for me?  I figured I would write here as sort of a central place to get my message to several of you at one time.

Okay, if you were tuning it out (I don't mind), please begin reading here:

I am very stressed out and have been extremely overwhelmed this week.  Like to the point of tears, two times.  It is not any fun at all and it is so hard to deal with on my own.  I detest that part.  

My "emotional dysregulation" personality?? or personality traits (aka Borderline Personality Disorder) is being very high this week.  I feel my emotions are everywhere and nowhere at the same time.  I am super thankful to have SST here with me!  Unfortunately part of the issues are about her :( :( :(  She is healthy and doing fine - Thank you, Lord!  It is time to renew her approval as a "not a pet"/ESA (Emotional Support Animal), also called Assistance Animal and Support Animal on this website we are required to use.  Oh my! the terms and definitions!  But that is not even my issue right now.  

Our approval for SST was set to expire on June 5; and it did.  But even though I was at the site and trying to update two separate times in May of this year, the official approval still expired.  I talked to our apartment manager guy on the phone about the site and my SST this late afternoon.  I left the call by not responding and therefore I think he hung up.  I was in tears with my SST because he didn't understand my question and was trying to "help" me in a way that was totally not the problem, not the issue and unhelpful all the way around. 

Second thing to tell you about: 

I am glad to report that my therapist, gone for several weeks - few months, has officially and actually returned to the office and to work as of Monday.  I am very thankful for this as she left work to prepare for and then deliver their twin baby boys!  She has been on maternity leave and I have been missing her.  Tuesday I had a scheduled appointment, our first since I think March 5th.  I got to the office (SST came with me) and found her actually there.  This is a fear of mine; kind of any time my counselor might leave for something (even like few days for a vacation or something "small"), I can get very concerned that she will not come back.  This time the joy of having new babies to doat on, to love and care for... my concern was if she really would come back at all.

I am thankful to report that she did.  Babies were born March 25 and both spent some time in NICU (intensive care unit for newborn and very small babies).  They needed to stay inside mama for a bit longer to help develop lungs more fully - but also not stay inside mama because they were sort of in each other's way! on both sides, lol.  They were born at small but great weight/size for twins.  Now, they are all - the entire family - back home from hospital and the older brothers done with school. 

I was so glad to hear this report and most of all that they are doing well and continuing to be healthy.  They now have a family of: mom, dad, son (15), son (13), son (just turned 5), and two tiny baby boys who are just over 2 months old!  And also, do not forget their bestest, sweet four-legged friend! (canine variety)  My therapist said pup is doing well too and being nursemaid by being near/available, but not on top of small boys :) 

If you've read all the way to here?  Thank you, and 2 or 3 gold stars to you!  Please send hugs, I could use about 7 right now.  Also prayers for sleep and being tired.  It is currently 3:46am.  I am up by way of unintentional naps while watching even 1 hour of TV and lots, lots of anxiety. 

Again, thank you friends.  I am so grateful that we have 7cups and that I can write to you.  I send you hugs too!  <3 Platy (ha, nearly signed my given first name again!)  and of course, SST too ❤️ 🐾

@glenM  @heather225  @anomalia  @sunisshiningandsoareyou  @internalacceptance and everyone who is following my page, or just comes upon it.  Thank you for reading <3 

Hey. So, I'm on the phone app - one of my 1st times here.

I'm not doing well.

I need to remember to come back here and update y'all when things are generally OK!

Please pray for me and SST. My sleep schedule and eating "schedule" is really messed up.

Good things:

1 - I am very much enjoying the Olympic competitions! Go USA!!! #Paris2024

2 - I got a replacement refrigerator on Friday, = before the weekend!

3 - I picked up 2 Rx today, that I've needed since Thursday night. I'm hoping my allergy symptoms will lessen as I start the allergy med again tonight.

4 - I vacuumed a good chunk of my apartment floor this weekend. I even emptied the dust,etc collection bin 😲

Thanks for reading and for your prayers. Do feel free to leave suggestions, resources, and/or reminders for me – as I do really want to come back and provide updates. Thanks, friends!! You guys take care of you, too! Ok?♥️ Platy

tech Tuesday, Aug 6!? time here is 1:25am.