@Hiba111 hi welcome to cups ❤❤ I was diagnosed with anxiety, cause I guess I had a lot of common symptoms, mostly fear. Fear of going out, being around people, lots of panic attacks🙁 have you been diagnosed?? Or getting symptoms??
Ohh okay so you were clinically diagnosed i am still not so i am unsure
@Hiba111 what sort of symptoms are you having??
@Hiba111 I got diagnosed back early in college, but I've had anxiety since I was an early teen. I get paranoid of other people, isolate, freeze up, overthink, ball up on the floor, cry, have screaming fits in private, have a constant need to run away, have self-destructive habits that are bad attempts to regulate my emotions.
But also, for example: Today is a day off from my job. Unlike normal people, I wake up anxious about what I am supposed to do with myself as to not waste my time. I get more angry and anxious the more I procrastinate on finding the perfect activity. I made myself a to do list and I check items off, but the anxiety only rises as I keep thinking about this upcoming week and then I start catastrophizing about not getting my work done or getting sick or getting scammed so I go for some intense exercise to out run the anxiety, but I come back to the same decision paralysis, anxiety, and self-directed anger. I think I really just need to get out of the house lol and hope that I can keep myself calm enough to keep it together and make rational decisions in public.
Praying that my new therapist is a good one and to find some meds soon.
So, you have anxiety?
From wht u said i think so but not with the same intensity. I can see it is hard fir u and u are fighting it . What was wrong with the old therapist
@Hiba111 I've been through a few different therapists actually lol and that's just the way it is- they all have different personalities and specialize in different therapy approaches and it's really trial and error to find the one that clicks with you for what you need in that moment.
like my first therapist decided not to tell me to my face, but to my mom instead that I need to drop out of college and be hospitalized for anorexia, depression, and anxiety. this just led to me getting offended that she didn't respect me enough to tell me to my face so I continued with my junior year and...well, I nearly offed myself and I ended up dropping out to go inpatient lol.
Second therapist was a no-nonsense tough love realist kind of person and we worked so well together even though it was really hard for me at times- but that was only in inpatient
Third therapist was warm and more friendly and encouraged me to explore and think deeply about things- this was actually not good for me because she helped me think my way into a delusional depression spiral for the entirety of my outpatient program until the staff had had enough of me and kicked me out.
Fourth therapist was motherly and a good mix between practical and friendly, but she didn't give me enough homework to work on so eventually I dropped her after several years of no progress.
Fifth therapist was someone I found online whose responses all came out of a textbook and who once again didn't recognize that allowing me to tell my life story as a tragedy to myself over and over again was very dangerous to my psyche so I dropped her after one too many breakdowns.
Sixth therapist was neurodivergent just like me and young and a good mix of practical and friendly and she gave me homework when I asked and even though I felt like we weren't making progress, I still liked our sessions. But then she made me go to an eating disorders specialist to get screened and yes duh I still have anorexia in the back of my head and the specialist contacted my therapist who isnt versed in eating disorders and my therapist freaked out and said I needed to go inpatient again or she will not see me. I refused and left.
Seventh therapist was an art therapist who just let me ramble and she didn't do anything but validate me and then talk about herself while she made me draw random lines and paint with watercolor. My parents discovered I was still self harming pretty badly so they made me drop her.
Eigth therapist (the current one) is a dude who reminds me of a friendly high school teacher- down to earth and specializes in cbt. So far so good, but keep your fingers crossed lol.
Have you tried therapy before?
Honestly, I've always had anxious symptoms like being extremely shy, overthinking, and worrying a lot. Senior high school my eye was twitching for WEEKS because of all the stress and anxiety and I eventually went to a doctor.
And how are u now?
Worse honestly LOL. I don't have insurance at this moment so getting meds/therapy is hard. I'm trying to find all the resources I can from home and also joining this app. It's a work in progress. Once I get insurance I'm definitely going to look into therapy and medication.
I got diagnosed by a doctor last year.
@Hiba111
Unique question, I believe I just feel when I'm anxious.
