My anxiety lately
Heyy!
I am an 18year old F.
I recently joined my uni, it's not far away from home.... about 4 hours, but I do live in the hostel. It has been about 2.5 months since I joined and I am a part of a couple of clubs and societies that I really like and I have been liking working. But lately, my anxiety has been acting up and it has been tiring tf out of me. I had 4 panic attacks in the initial 2 months and it was an alarm for me, since I haven't had such consecutive attacks ever before. After visiting a psychiatrist, I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder (GAD).
My relationship with my boyfriend broke up about 6 months ago, and the person was a huge part of my life, him leaving in itself was really difficult... but then we are in the same uni, and we haven't really been able to disconnect ever. It seems like a great paradox to me that neither am I able to stay with him without any anxiety, nor am I completely able to stay away from him. Him being and not being there are both unsustainable and anxiety triggering.
I feel like asking for help at this point is also very embarrassing and I come back home almost every weekend and feel like I am escaping. I feel embarassed being troubled by the same problem since such a long time and I feel like by coming home I am running away from my problems and not being strong enough.
I see him everyday, and I am not sure what to do... we haven't been talking lately, but he seemed confused about ending things for a while and I am not sure if this is actually the end, or maybe I am just making this entire thing up in my head. There are people in my life who have been trying to help me, but I feel like what if I burden them or if it's embarrassing to focus on just this one issue instead of doing the 1000 other things I can be doing.
I ask for people when I am anxious, but not everyone can always be there and I don't want to feel embarassed and dependent. I have had a lot to say and this is a part of it... just looking for some support here
Thank you!!
@shyAcai2597
Hello! I just want you to know that, never think of yourself as a burden to others because you are not! I’ve actually been living quite a similar life to yours, so I understand how you feel. I can’t give you advice, but I just want you to know that you aren’t alone. 💕 Try to reach out as much as possible whenever you need help. I’m glad you found the courage to come onto here to find support. Listeners are here to listen to all your troubles as well. All the best! 💕 Don’t forget that you are precious and amazing!💕💕
Thank you so much, I cannot tell you how wonderful this makes me feel and gives me a lot more courage @JanusPi
@shyAcai2597
Here’s some more love! 💕💕💕
@shyAcai2597
You know I can kind of relate to you. I'm suffering from same like breakup and not being able to share. But I just tell myself it'll pass soon don't worry. Also you can try some breathing techniques or meditation to calm yourself. I've tried the latter and it's helping. I know it's difficult but I also know you can do it, we can do it☺.
Sending lots of love and strength to you❤.