Living with toxic family
I’m a 21yr old & I’ve grown up in a toxic dysfunctional family. Growing up seeing my parents abuse each other & abuse me and my sibling was not easy but we were kids so we didn’t took them personally. But now that we’re both grown up, it’s getting harder to be even around then day by day. I just don’t know how much a person can handle anymore. I keep having suicidal thoughts cuz I feel like only then I’ll be able to be free from all the trauma ny parents gives me & my sibling. I have lost my will to live let alone do anything else at this point. I have no energy to even explain to anyone what I’m going through right now. As I live in a brown family, we can’t move out of our houses & live on our own. To do that, we’ll have to finish our education, get a job, get married & only then we’ll be able to leave our houses. Therapy isn’t also an option cuz of these reasons. I really don’t know how to live with them anymore they’re getting abusive & toxic day by day that when they get violent with me I tend to beat myself because it just feels right. I don’t know why I do that I just feel like I have to do something to get my feelings out. I keep crying all day and night & it’s been weeks. I’m hopeless at this point. I just keep thinking about wanting to end myself because I don’t know how long I’ll be able to live under their torture anymore.
@sensitiveBalsam7250
if you dont want to describe it , i wont ask you. even though the environment around you is bad now . have you made a priority list what you want in life ? it helps you to distract yourself from drama, it might feel a lot less
Came here to get help about this exact thing . I've grown up with my parents abusing each other to the extent of even near death. Tho it's stopped now cz they have been living separate but the things I've been through are still stuck with me for life . I'm a student and I'm indian so I'm still very much dependent on just them but I'm trying my best to deal with it and find ways to detach from them like joining a hostel soon . Trust me you just rn need to focus on yourself get yourself out of there asap if you are a student tell them you want to stay in a hostel . Make your future plans accordingly.
@Modestcity2911
They are toxic to each other I get it , plus when you talk about they are toxic to you and your siblings , what do you mean as toxic is very generic word. If you could give an example that would be even better
I was in your position growing up :( had to drop school and get a job so I could move me and my sister out of our home when I turned 20. We come from a brown family as well, so I understand that pain. I’m 23 now and while I have been struggling to get back in school and finish, I know moving out was the right choice. I never want to go back. I know it feels impossible and out of reach, but it isn’t!! Your life isn’t over and you have so much ahead of you. I gained the will to live again after gaining my freedom and I hope the same for you. Much love 🫂♥️
@sensitiveBalsam7250
I am also in the same situation as you. I suffer from a family with low awareness. I cannot get along with them. They are very negative and I am tired of them. But now I started reading the book Surrounded by ***. I entered a course in communication skills and drawing, and now I am looking for a job in order to get away from them and mingle with new people.
@sensitiveBalsam7250
I’m really sorry you’re going through this. You’re not alone in this situation as you can see by reading some of these comments. Like you and the others who’ve posted about living in a toxic family I too am living in a toxic family.
My parents have absolutely no awareness about themselves, anyone or anything. They refuse to accept that they have problems that need professional help to solve but refuse to get any help and refuse to admit their problems. But despite it being shown they don’t known that their refusal to get help for solving their problems is causing even more problems to not only themselves/each other but to the rest of the family too.
It feels like they’re at a point now where they’re too stuck in their own ways and world and won’t change. That just makes it more difficult,
However I’ve found that distancing myself from them as much as possible and therapy is helping me. I think you should try these and let me know what the results are if you decide to try them. Good luck to you my friend ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
