I'm sick of this

Hey guys! I just wanted to tell you that I had enough about that "everything is my fault", "I'm stubborn" and "I am the stupid, " because "I don't listen to others".

Okay.

Now It's clear to me, that just because I don't wanna be anyone's puppet, or robot, and I don't want to s*xting or have s*x with random people.

Off course I'll be automatically bad person, and I deserve that person threats me example If I won't send him ***, then he will block me, and ofc Its my fault If It hurts me, because I'm just a toy which doesn't have feelings. (Yes, I got this answer too)

But Now I realized that I'm not and never be good enough, and I don't have good personality, and I may be such a boring person If that is the only reason people start to talk with me.

Nowadays I'm thinking about s*icide because I feel nobody loves me (1-2 person are expection, respect) I don't need 500000 fake friends but It would be better, If I would met new people and not only talk with that 2 people. But If I'm not interesting then I'm not interesting. I understood.