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Depression Support / by moonligt
Last post
 August 18th
...See more I just started to work again couple of weeks ago, after 1 year, most of my co-workers are kind and supportive, but here is a a co-worker who thinks that she is my boss and she can do anything what she wants, and she is looking down me because of I'm a student and I'm sick of it, she was screaming with me, even though before 1 hour she started that she will break the person's teeth who were screaming to her children. But looks llike she can scream with anyone's kid (I'm 18 btw) Next to this I have or had a boyfriend who "loves me" but then he started random joking with that he want to hook up with a girl, and then he called me jealous 2.0 , so he even laughed' next day he apogalised and told me that he loves me, and another day he called me boring and idk where is the logic, If he loves me, why does he hurt me like that?. My best friend said that I'm just overthinking that, and wondering why is it hard to me to forget a 3 yeah old relationship, that also hurted me, a good friend will go to another school next year, that also didn't help. The point is that now I feel alone, I feel that... Idk...Sometimes I just thinking about suicide, even though It wouldn't help these situations I just want helpð¥º
Again here
Depression Support / by moonligt
Last post
 August 9th
...See more Hi guys again, moon is here! As you can see I haven't posted for a while. To be honest I'm still hesitating If I should text about It because I don't want to feel sorry for myself but I also want help...my bf random started day after day that he bored me, and he doesn't care about me anymore, and I should forget him next day he said that he was joking, It was not serious, and It's hard to me to forget a 3 year long relationship, and I told this to my best friend who told me that I dreserve better, but I think she is mad at me right now because it's hard to me to forget that 3 year old relationship. I'm afraid If I also lose her, and I will be totally alone. I have suicidal thoughts, because I'm "not good enough" And I'm sick of that.
Confused/angry/sad
Relationship Stress / by moonligt
Last post
 August 6th
...See more Hi guys, I'm Moon! I'm new here, and I decided that I should write about my experience with one of my friends, because I think then I could see this situation from multiple perspectives, so probably I would understand it better. (To be honest I don't usually post anything anywhere, so I'm a little bit nervous, and ashamed, but I will try to explain.)It will be long, sorry! So, I was around 15-16 years old, when I met him, (so we know his gender) he helped me when someone bullied me, he was kind, so we quickly became friends. After a while, we stopped talking, and we haven't talked for around 2 years. He texted me perivous month, and asked me If I remember him, and If I wanna talk with him again, I agreed. In the first few days nothing special happened. We just told each other what happened while we weren't talking. So It was just simple "getting to know each other more" conversations. Later he asked me, If I ever had boyfriend, and what kind of relationships I like, and the point is that I said I also prefer a long-distance relationship, but he doesn't like it. I respect anyone's opinion, so not that was the problem. The problem was that he didn't respect mine, because he acted like If he wanted to decide my feelings, example he said that "Moon, you can't be in an online relationship" which hurted me, I hate the ex-bf topics anway, so he apogalised, and promised me that he will never talk about it again. [ ] Soon he started calling me example "my love, darling, honey,sun, precious" and that "you are so beatuiful" , he asked me weird things like "Can I kiss your neck, what would you do If I were kiss your lips" when he called me "my love" for the first time I thought that he is joking, but when he called me the girl of his dreams, and even asked me that If I were met a boy like him, I would like to be the boy's gf, then I started to think about that he has a crush on me. And he also asked me If I wanna be in a relationship with anyone, I answered him I'm not ready for a few reasons,example 1-2 weeks are not enough to get know someone (after 2years people can change) , but NOT he is the problem If he wanted to ask me out. He became upset, so that day he went to sleep earlier. I ovbiously noticed later, so I told him that I don't have problem with him, he looks like good, he is smart etc., and I respect him. I even drew about him and I to my diary, I showed him and I told him that I didn't want to hurt him. He answered that he appreciates it, and anything happens he will support me. But compared to that, next day he asked me If my exes are better than him, I were ready for them, and I answered that I was 12-13-14 years old, and I couldn't think rationally, but I learned that good look is not enough for a relationship, we also need to know that person. And I asked him If he haven't told me before that online relationships are don't exist, and he said: "Then I said that. But for now, I say It's true." Then It made me confused, after It he random started that I'm lied something about one of my exes relationship, because I didn't mention It before, and he never heard similar situation, and that I don't have values, he is laughing at me, If I believe my fairytales then something is wrong in my mind, I'm a liar and he stops the conversation. I didn't lie, but I don't think It was fair from him that he accused me, but I could accuse him for more things: He doesn't trust me, he didn't take into account that I'm not ready, he promised he would never mention the ex-bf topic again but he did it second time. He started nitpicking with me, and made fun of me, insulted me. I know the "no " can be hurtable, and he had bad experiences, but he still doesn't have right to treat me like that. I really tried to be fair, but I ended up being the scapegoat. All of these things happened fast, when this arquing happened I couldn't tell my "accuses" to him. I'm still confused on some level about this. I still have unanswered questions. So yeah, that's my story. And I really didn't want to be unrespectful to anyone. Thank you If you read it!
At times I feel alone
Depression Support / by moonligt
Last post
 July 24th
...See more Right now I feel That I had enough about everything that I'm not enough good for anyone, and If I'm that much "bad person" then I dont wanna live anymore😭😭😭😭😭
Confused/heartbroken/feel depression.
Depression Support / by moonligt
Last post
 July 28th
...See more Hi guys, I'm Moon! I'm new here, and I decided that I should write about my experience with one of my friends, because I think then I could see this situation from multiple perspectives, so probably I would understand it better. (To be honest I don't usually post anything anywhere, so I'm a little bit nervous, and ashamed, but I will try to explain.)It will be long, sorry! So, I was around 15-16 years old, when I met him, (so we know his gender) he helped me when someone bullied me, he was kind, so we quickly became friends. After a while, we stopped talking, and we haven't talked for around 2 years. He texted me perivous month, and asked me If I remember him, and If I wanna talk with him again, I agreed. In the first few days nothing special happened. We just told each other what happened while we weren't talking. So It was just simple "getting to know each other more" conversations. Later he asked me, If I ever had boyfriend, and what kind of relationships I like, and the point is that I said I also prefer a long-distance relationship, but he doesn't like it. I respect anyone's opinion, so not that was the problem. The problem was that he didn't respect mine, because he acted like If he wanted to decide my feelings, example he said that "Moon, you can't be in an online relationship" which hurted me, I hate the ex-bf topics anway, so he apogalised, and promised me that he will never talk about it again. [ ] Soon he started calling me example "my love, darling, honey,sun, precious" and that "you are so beatuiful" , he asked me weird things like "Can I kiss your neck, what would you do If I were kiss your lips" when he called me "my love" for the first time I thought that he is joking, but when he called me the girl of his dreams, and even asked me that If I were met a boy like him, I would like to be the boy's gf, then I started to think about that he has a crush on me. And he also asked me If I wanna be in a relationship with anyone, I answered him I'm not ready for a few reasons,example 1-2 weeks are not enough to get know someone (after 2years people can change) , but NOT he is the problem If he wanted to ask me out. He became upset, so that day he went to sleep earlier. I ovbiously noticed later, so I told him that I don't have problem with him, he looks like good, he is smart etc., and I respect him. I even drew about him and I to my diary, I showed him and I told him that I didn't want to hurt him. He answered that he appreciates it, and anything happens he will support me. But compared to that, next day he asked me If my exes are better than him, I were ready for them, and I answered that I was 12-13-14 years old, and I couldn't think rationally, but I learned that good look is not enough for a relationship, we also need to know that person. And I asked him If he haven't told me before that online relationships are don't exist, and he said: "Then I said that. But for now, I say It's true." Then It made me confused, after It he random started that I'm lied something about one of my exes relationship, because I didn't mention It before, and he never heard similar situation, and that I don't have values, he is laughing at me, If I believe my fairytales then something is wrong in my mind, I'm a liar and he stops the conversation. I didn't lie, but I don't think It was fair from him that he accused me, but I could accuse him for more things: He doesn't trust me, he didn't take into account that I'm not ready, he promised he would never mention the ex-bf topic again but he did it second time. He started nitpicking with me, and made fun of me, insulted me. I know the "no " can be hurtable, and he had bad experiences, but he still doesn't have right to treat me like that. I really tried to be fair, but I ended up being the scapegoat. All of these things happened fast, when this arquing happened I couldn't tell my "accuses" to him. I'm still confused on some level about this. I still have unanswered questions. So yeah, that's my story. And I really didn't want to be unrespectful to anyone. Thank you If you read it!
Still confused.
Anxiety Support / by moonligt
Last post
 July 22nd
...See more I'm started thinking about that I'm a bad person. Not this was the first similar situation when a friend became mad because I didn't want to hook up with them. I feel I tried everything to be fair and to be kind as well, but I think I should accept that I'll never be good enough, doesn't matter how much I try. Ovbiously there are also expentions (respect the expections) and It would be legitimate If somemone say that I should focus the positive, because It s true, but that situation still hurts me, even though it happened periovus month
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