Bad day today

Hi, why is it that when you try and ask for help you don’t get it at the time you need, and when you try and explain that you are struggling through a day and you are putting forward that you’ve been upset and breaking down at work, they don’t listen in a way you’d like, they don’t answer in a way you’d like… And it’s like you aren’t being listened too or understood… And it is painful and frustrating because at work today I broke down twice and I needed to go home early and when I was speaking to the people I needed too it seemed like they were *** off and annoyed at the fact you need to do what’s best for you and what’s necessary to you… And feels like they don’t care and think you are making up *** just to get out of work… I’m sorry but at the moment I am struggling and have needed to change some things at work to be able to cope and get what I need and think it’s best but they think it’s stupid.. And it feels like they’re judging you all the time you are trying to ask for and trying to show you need help and need that understanding… People are harsh and where I work, apparently THEY TAKE MENTAL HEALTH seriously… WELL in my case they don’t, seems like they are trying to ignore it hoping I’ll get better, and that they need me to do more for them when I can’t especially already suffering first few hours in the work morning… I just feel like I’m not being heard and like I’m being misunderstood and treated like I’m making it all up.. IT HURTS! And ITS PAINFUL physically and mentally, and it drains you like being sucked from a leech… It sucks and it makes me not want to be around those people at work, and I am starting to now get terrified of asking them for help or if I need to go, I am terrified to ask for the things I desperately think I need and it shouldn’t have to be like that…. 😢😢😢😢 I don’t want to feel like this.. and why would I want to be like this knowing damn well I want my dreams to come true and save money to be able to get a house with my partner.. I wouldn’t be doing this on purpose you stupid ***… SOME PEOPLE JUST DONT CARE AT ALL…