Anxious cuz self pity n need of company is hard:(
U know how u get anxiety from self pity since ur not okay n however that is, I know I can finally say putting myself first n do something for me or during meditation the compassion I was finally thought of - MYSELF
whenever I reach out to ppl to this day only one thing in life shows- they don’t care the same I do or in deeper level
i couldn’t hold onto any rope since it’s all temporary …
it’s either bad luck in life, my own personality or sometjing in between since no, I’m not strong n I deserve same treatment for my stuff but ppl never give me, it’s easier for them to even assume oh well I’m strong I know my stuff doesn’t mean I don’t feel it anymore!!
it’s so hard to befriend somebody cuz the comfort n interaction like being seen is my need but when ppl don’t give me back what I need or in such pattern or amount it’s like, I’m going such lengths when they don’t even care n can fade on me (ghosting)….
ofc, u end up bottling it again n again no matter what hobby, what meditation I do I still end up being in the same pain.
never open door to anyone or help unless u know they would show something from their side but also, once I stop, they stop too… don’t even try there I’m telling you, it only shows their characters n how plain they all are… I would never done it but guess that’s just me… this is not just one time or one community, it’s multiple situations, circles, people that brought me to this stage!!
tell me ppl, whats worth in this world anymore than yourself?
@livbinny what's worth in this world anymore than yourself??
Kindness of a stranger. Without a kind word, a kind smile, a kind deed, then many people would not make it as far as they do in life ❤we can all change the world just one kind deed at a time 🙂❤
Tbh it must be good stranger. Not all of them care or want to help n it’s easier to give up on a person without offering compassion.
@livbinny yeah I know🙁 it's sometimes hard to believe that there are still people who are kind out there. I didn't think so till I was 18 but since then all I've seen is the kindness in people, I guess I'm one of the lucky ones to have so much kindness shown to me.I'm sorry if what I said upset you, that was not my intention ❤ I just wish there was a way I could help you, the best I can do is offer a hug🙂 hugs you tightly ❤❤
Yeah likely a luck since to me whenever I trust or open up even shows that not all good ppl are good fit for me, I’m exhausted n tired as I wish somebody once fought for me, offered me the same amount of giving I so wholeheartedly was pouring to so many ppl just ending up used n being their spare time or for granted like they gave up sooner or later, some even gave up day one!
i see goodness in ppl hence why I always gave them chances (trust, vulnerability) n kept being hurt…. Until I’m having like enough like now from recent case w one member (not here)
somewhat similar like u in that kindness but I stopped believing they are truly good…
mind sharing what the good say or share w u?
I think it’s incredible luck to have that in life, hope u cherish it every day
But ppl exploited it from me..
nor did I receive anything back but even now when I tried to reach out to person w similar struggles all they did was telling me how comfort only comes after I leave this situation as if it was that easy making me feel like I’m not enough now which it’s not true💔
some ppl give out suggestions, not listening to u properly ending up in unsolicited advice without comfort or empathy
leaves me broken yk.
i just don’t believe that ppl rly care either🙏🏻
@livbinny here for you
slow down it helps
take care