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Everything's changing out there to next level. Everyone is so creative and living their life nowadays. I'm almost 28 yo, unemployed since 4 years or so. I had a job for 7 months last year but still it doesn't count much because I couldn't learn anything productive from it. I mean I did learn something but it's not useful for today's level. My bad I'm still weak in language. Anyway I have no useful skills, good friends (I have but 1 or 2 and they're busy with their life), contacts, social skills, healthy memory, focus and concentration, quick reactions ( I need a year to respond sensibly to someone, a comment or anything, like I'm a too slow thinker), healthy sleep, good physique, achievements, therapist or a counsellor (because I can't afford them), interests (I don't feel like doing anything at all like I'm stuck and comfortable on the bed most of the day. I watch same clips, movies, asmr repeatedly. My body doesn't let me use my mind for new, productive thoughts), plans, goal but just dreams, tears, happy expressions, guts/balls (I fear rejections like shivering, fast heartbeats, pressure and such). I have lots of responsibilities to take over and I'm already too late for it. I can't even find anyone to compare my situation with which makes me left far behind everyone. I don't know what to do, where to start, how to plan, how to set a goal. I'm so numb dumb no one could ever imagine. I'm drowning. I can't even quit bc unfortunately I know that it doesn't make sense. Eventually I'm happening to show up as a dead person in front of everyone. And I'm ending up getting used to be shameless. It hurts but it is what it is. Anyone can comment or not I don't bother. But don't feel bad if I don't respond bc I'm going crazy numb with my mind.