My PTSD is killing me!!
I was sexually abused consequently, for about 4 years in my early childhood. Now, it's five years from then, and I feel like I've reached my tipping point!
Up until the past two to three months I've never had panic attacks or anxiety!
I have suicidal thoughts often though, but I've never really gone through with it. I mean, I've intentionally harmed myself a couple of times, but I've never been able to see it through to the final blow.
The worst part is, the two culprits, both of which were oblivious to the other, were my cousins. And our moms re super tight!! So, most times it feels like my silence is going to keep the peace intact, and not ruin our moms relationships.
But, right now my silence is coting me my sanity, and I felt like, if I don't talk to someone, or anyone I'm going to go insane! Gosh!!! The pain is maddening!!!
I don't know what to do anymore?
I mean, I couldn't even sleep last night! I'm having a serious headache, and I don't know, nothing makes sense!
It's like my body wants to live, or more like scared to die. But my soul, and my heart, and my entire being are fed up!
@Happyness04
I am so deeply sorry for what you’ve been through. Your pain is valid, and I can’t imagine the weight you’re carrying, but reaching out for support is a crucial step, and I’m so proud of you for doing that.
Please know that there are people who want to help you through this—whether it’s a listener, a therapist, a crisis helpline, or a trusted friend. Your voice matters, and you absolutely deserve to be heard, understood, and supported. If at any point you're feeling unsafe, please don’t hesitate to reach out to a crisis hotline. Your safety is the most important thing.
Even though it may feel like you're stuck right now, you are so worthy of healing. Please be kind and gentle with yourself as you move through this process. You’re doing the best you can, and that’s enough. Sending you all my support 💛
@Happyness04 heyy I get how you feel. It's okay. If you wanna talk about it get the burden off your chest you can talk to me. I'm here for you. It's really good to talk things out. It's okay...🫂
