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I suffer from sexually compulsive behaviour. This diagnosis includes a tendancy to compulsively watch pornography. You are not alone if you feel that you have no control over this. Ive been there! Its a terrible feeling. This disorder has negatively impacted every relationship Ive ever had. There were times Ive felt so ashamed of the things Ive done I contemplated suicide. How can something that feels so good be so wrong? The act of watching pornography and masturbating isnt wrong. Quite the opposite. Its completely normal. Nobody sees a guy drinking a beer and says man, whats wrong with him!?. But he could have a problem with alcohol. Its when normal behaviours evolve into uncontrollable demons that consume our thoughts and control how we behave that we have a problem. Identifying/admitting it is the first step. Just by being here you are already well on your way to getting better at managing this addiction.
When I was about 5 I found my fathers porn stash. I had no idea what it was but all I remember is looking at the pictures in the magazines made me happy so I kept doing it when he wasnt around. Probably around 9 or 10 I learned what masturbation was and since I already knew where to find arousal material I combined the two. Later in my early teens, I dogsat for a man who was away in the military a lot...I got paid for it but I didnt care. See, I knew he had an extensive porn collection on VHS (ok Im old!) in his
Hello. I think you do not need to give up. Try to find a community with support. You are now the main moral support.
Hello everyone I am Mr Smith Benson from USA, I am giving a testimony on how I joined the illuminati brotherhood, I was trying to join this organization for so many years now,I was scammed by fake agent in south Africa and Nigeria,I was down,I could not feed my self and my family anymore and I tried to make money by all miss but all avail, I was afraid to contact any Illuminati agent because they have eat my money. One day I across a post of someone giving a testimony, thanking a man called Paul mark of being helping him to join the illuminati brotherhood, then I look at the man email and the phone number that was written there, it was a Nigeria number I was afraid to contact him because a Nigeria agent eat my $5,000 and go away with the money then I was very tired, confused and I decided to contact the person that was given the testimony and i called him and I communicated with him on phone calls before he started telling me his own story about when he wanted to join, he told me everything to do, then I made up my mind and called the agent called Paul mark and he told me everything to do, and I was initiated, surprisingly I was given my benefit of being a new member of the great illuminati brotherhood I was so happy,For those of you trying to join this organization this is your opportunity for you to join (edited by lovelyWhisper66 for sharing personal contact information- please see community guidelines here )