It just keeps getting worse
I am so sad y’all. I have BP I and when I get low, well, legit I don’t want to be here and I work hard to make it so I won’t be anymore. You know what I mean. I already feel myself slipping, no alcohol, because I know better. And I’ve been forbidden.
But damnit to get high is all I have to turn to when things suck. All I have is my husband and although we are the same person and so much in love—I think we’re done too. I just don’t know what to do.
Those of you with friends and family that love and support you, please be grateful. 🥹
@BeautifulCurse you mean it's the easiest thing to turn to not the only thing. It gives the illusion of numbing the underlying issues but it really just pushes them down and they end up affecting you on a much deeper level. Go for a walk. Listen and sing to music. Read a book. Take a nap. Anything else other than feeding it exactly what it wants.
@BeautifulCurse you have yourself. You keep saying you have no one but you have yourself and in my opinion you're pretty fricking amazing.
