I have an addictive personality
I have been using excessive amounts of different things for a release of dopamine for so long. And, I have been suffering major depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. If I ever switch off a substance or activity I'm addicted to, I go to another.
I'm not really sure what to do at this point, I haven't had a real interest in something in a long time. So I have little to no healthy ideas other than work out. But, I can't even bring myself to do it because I beat myself up over that.
@EmberShard
Ooft, I can relate to that great, I think it's whenever you feel that 'buzz' you want to replicate the first time you got that feeling and you end up needing more and more of the same things to keep that feeling and we all know that's a losing battle.
Welcome by the way, I'm FrenchMarbles, you're welcome in this community ^_^