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EmberShard
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PathStep 15 Compassion hearts2,414 Forum posts46 Forum upvotes78 Current upvotes78 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2024 Member sinceMay 27, 2022
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Hello, you can call me Brian. I'm about to be 26 while writing this, and life has been very eventful for me. I'm at a much better point than when I was when I first wrote my bio. I still struggle with confidence and being nicer to myself. 'I pour from an empty cup' you could say, trying to be the best for everyone else except me. I'm very open-minded, and I like to be very thoughtful and inquisitive. I'm also highly empathetic, which comes with a price when it's surrounded by toxic energy. Sometimes, the more you go through, makes you stronger.

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Neverending battle of my mind.
Depression Support / by EmberShard
Last post
 April 25th
...See more Good morning, or evening. TW: Food, hopelessness. I'm posting here, hopefully I can connect with someone or at least relate to people. I haven't had peace for years now. Constantly being around toxic negative energy at my house, through fighting or improper relations. I also have a lot of difficulty with my self image, and confidence. I keep beating myself up over not getting myself out of this loop. I have to find a place to go, even if I'm going to struggle financially. I don't know how much longer I can keep taking this mental abuse. It's all from me either way, it's no one else's fault. I also haven't been taken care of myself really, it's hard to when the people I'm trying to avoid are constantly in the areas that have the things I need, at home. I also struggle with trusting. I'm already opposed to talking about things now, because talking hasn't gotten me anywhere except here still.
How to find enjoyment again?
Depression Support / by EmberShard
Last post
 January 7th
...See more I can't seem to find happiness like I used to, even when I try and do things I used to find passion for. I play video games, workout, watch shows, research, and do civil war reenactment. But I don't feel good about any of it. I haven't been for 2 years now, especially. I thought maybe over time I would just get over my problems. But, the problems don't go anywhere. I deal with them everyday, like my toxic living situation. So I feel like as long as Maslow's hierarchy of needs is being disrupted, I won't achieve anything
I feel alone and unable to trust
General Support / by EmberShard
Last post
 August 29th, 2022
...See more I could get into it, but I'll just summarize. My whole life kind of got flipped upside down about five months ago. Everything I've thought of being good and trustworthy has either flipped entirely or has been severely convoluted. Most of my relationships with friends and family have dissolved or fallen out very hard. I lost my girlfriend of three years around my birthday. I was jobless for almost 4 months, I tried applying to so many places and only just got a job started at Olive Garden. I have nobody I can really talk to about my problems. I don't trust anybody enough anymore, because everyone has really shown their true colors to me or is 'too busy' whenever I start opening up. I also really despise myself and have very little respect for myself. I only barely take care of myself. I have a lot of stomach problems, and I've lost a lot of weight. And getting a good counselor seems to be very difficult. I can't rely on family because they're all too dysfunctional in one way or another.
I have an addictive personality
Addiction Support / by EmberShard
Last post
 May 30th, 2022
...See more I have been using excessive amounts of different things for a release of dopamine for so long. And, I have been suffering major depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. If I ever switch off a substance or activity I'm addicted to, I go to another.
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