2 months and 5 days?
Today I am 2 months and 5 days clean of opioids. Unfortunately this has been overshadowed in my mind as I've recently come to admit that I also have an addiction to pornography. Through some self reflection I've come to notice that I've suffered from this for many many years. Honestly since the moment I had access to Internet. I always knew way too much about sex for my age. I've come to the realization that, unintentionally, I had replaced my porn addiction with an addiction to muscle relaxers and booger sugar, then when I finally shook drugs off me it was like porn never left. I recently started going to SA meetings and the openness and honesty of the groups is helping, but I keep hearing about how without a sponsor, there is "zero chance of recovery." hearing this is very discouraging. if that's the case then did I really ever get over drugs? maybe not having had a sponsor during my still ongoing drug recovery is the reason I still crave it so much and why I get such horrible body aches when I do get the craving. if you read this through I appreciate your time.
First of all, congratulations on your progress of being 2 months and 5 days clean from opioids. That's a significant achievement, and it shows your strength and determination in overcoming such a challenging addiction. Regarding your concern about not having had a sponsor during your opioid recovery, everyone's path to recovery is unique. While sponsors can be incredibly beneficial, it's not necessarily true that recovery is impossible without one. The fact that you've made progress without a sponsor demonstrates your resilience and determination. However, having additional support and guidance from someone experienced in recovery can certainly help strengthen your journey.
You can recover its not impossible. As long as you commit to change by learning and sourcing educational stuff online whatever amount you can each day consistantly youll be able to do it or at least the baseline is much better then before you learn or put routine and commitment into it.
