Checking in 10/04/22
I am a alcoholic I drink until I black out I had an episode last week. But I currently 5 days sober now I did have urges to drink a few days ago but I didn't drink I am proud of myself I really do hope to continue on my sobriety from alcohol. It's hard I come from an alcoholic family I had few family deaths in the past two years from them drinking everyday. I tend to get my urges when I am stressed or depressed and I would drink my pain away because that's all I ever saw. But when I black out I'm an angry drunk or I wonder off and have people worried don't know where I am and have family and friends look for me. So I will try to check in as much as I can and have this post help remind me to stay sober and fight the urges when I get them. I been sober twice from alcohol 1st time was for 2 years and the 2nd time was for 6 months last year.
20 days sober I started my new job and I like it. It's good pay so far things have been going really well with me and my wife.
@JayNative23 So good to hear man!
Way to go, Native! And congratulations on the new job going well and your relationship going well. May God keep you in his blessings.
26 days sober sorry I been busy with work a lot
@JayNative23
I'm proud of your sobriety!
@JayNative23 Nice! Glad to hear things are going well
I am 1 month and 1 day sober now
@JayNative23
Way to be
checking in: 930 days clean and sober today!
@DallasVDMerwe
WOOOWWWW! Way to go!
@purpleTree4652 thank you so much 🙏🙏🙏 100% appreciated
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Hi Jay, I realize your conversation got cut off in that chat. Im replying here to let you know I am here to talk still if you need it.Â
I am here and I am trying to get better. I will look for therapy, get healthcare to see if I qualify for anti depressants. I am struggling with those and when I am fed up from my emotions, thoughts, and stressed I tend to say f it and drunk and not think about who I hurt until after everything has happened.
@douuxxx
We finally talked today not spitting up but she gave me things I need to do for her to stay. She is asking for me not to drink anymore, seek therapy, and open up to her about my emotions and thoughts. I mention to her I don't at times because I see how stressed and depressed from her job and what's going on life so I don't want to be a burden on her. I will look for therapy when I get paid, I will kick the booze again but for good this time, I asked one of my friends who don't drink to let me join him at the gym starting this week, and I mention to her gaming does help but I know she doesn't want to see me game everyday it does help in escape my problems, thoughts, and emotions. I just hate myself still that I hurt her trust and feelings. I really do hope I can become a better partner to her and kick the booze for good this time. I am still planning on giving her space and will continue to sleep in another room so we won't be bothered by my presence.
I slipped up again recently due to stress and depression chose to drink and I blacked out almost lost my marriage again. I hate that I do this like my wife asked why doesn't the thought click in my head to I shouldn't drink.