Hello all.
Pattirose here. I am hoping to meet some people in my age group here.
I was widowed in 2009, and now I face losing my fiance to cancer. I dread starting the grief journey again. I'm scared.
@pattirose
I am so sorry for your loss, and now you are facing sickness with another. I know this is so hard to face and to make sense of. Losing our loved ones is never easy. I hope that you will keep posting in this forum and keep reaching out for the support that hard times make it difficult to deal with alone. We are here to support you. You are not alone❤️. We have one on one Listeners that are free any time day and night. There is❤️ also Therapist available for a fee.
@scarletPear1945
Thank you. I just found out that the cancer is too advanced for treatment. So he will have hspice care at home for whatever time he has left. With liver failure, it won't be long. I'm devastated now. If he had gone to the dr. last month when he had pain, he might be in treatment now. I have to start over again, and I don't want to.
@pattirose
I am so sorry to hear this and I know this has to hurt so deeply. I just want to say that words could never touch the enormous pain that you are going through right now. But I am here if you need a hand to hold or a shoulder to cry on. You are not alone. Also, you can reach out to any Listener 24/7 if you need to vent. My prayers are with you and I pray for your strength❤️
@pattirose
Hi @pattirose.
I hope you manage. Soon also maybe you'll get the report from the doctor from yesterday. I prayed for you yesterday as you asked for in the group.
@Helgafy
Thank you for your prayers. I expected the worst, and that's what I just found out. The cancer is too advanced and he is too weak for treatment. I'm devastated. I don't want to start again. We were so happy.
@pattirose
Good morning to you @pattirose.
I didn't see you answer here. So sad he could not take any more treatment! So you are in a dark place now in deep sorrow. I prayed for you also yesterday. Someday you'll see the light again! (As I'm a Christian I'll also remind you of Jesus Christ who says about Himself that He is the light of this world).
From Helga.
My prayers are with you and I am so sorry your going through this again.
