I just feel like a fool for trying and that it's no use now
goodSpruce3041
January 23rd
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I'm in my 60's. I worked hard to achieve, to make something of my talents, but I have failed - that is, I have developed my talents so that I'm actually good at what I do - some say very good (made the Dean's List at my college), but I can't make much money at it. Because of a layoff, cancer, and an auto-immune disorder, plus having to isolate because of COVID (my doctor thinks that the vaccine might have GIVEN me the auto-immune disorder), I have been stuck at home for nearly two years. My savings have drastically dwindled. I will never be able to retire unless a miracle happens.
I feel like I ruined my life chasing my dreams. All I want to do now is just wait for the inevitable bad end. Get evicted, and end it.