Trying to let go and move on & Failing miserably

Dear vash, I'm so sorry your in pain. It's likely your feeling grief over the loss. I had a similar loss last year and it crushed me. But I started writing about it and it helped me see things a little clearer. Some ppl are on your path for a short time and then they leave it so the next person can come into your life . Universe at work I think. Just know your not alone in your suffering and ppl care. I care.

Thanks. That means a lot. I'm still a mess, got some closure yesterday but also found out even more that has made it so much worse. I haven't slept for more than an hour or two a night Saturday, even after taking things specifically to help me sleep like melatonin. Just can't get my head to calm the replays of everything leading up to now. It's memory after memory, replaying past events, internal arguments with myself... It's torture. Don't want to eat, can't sleep, just feel like an empty shell of a man.

Vash, don't be too hard on yourself. Be gentle like you would to a friend. Grieving takes time. Reach out to a Dr, teacher, coach, friend for help . I have been in therapy about 3 yrs now and it definitely is helping me find healthy ways to cope and heal. It's very difficult to ask for help, it was for me. But I did and I'm better. You might need stronger sleep meds. You can't cope or heal without good sleep. I went to a Dr. I trust and she put me on a good path. Don't give up you deserve happiness and love in your life. Strong ppl ask for help!!

i know how it feels.just stuck in same situation 😔