Betrayal Trauma
Its been 9 months since I found out about my partner's affair, and despite his commitment to change, I still have frequent nightmares, panic attacks, acute emotional pain over the trauma. I feel like he deserves to experience the emotional damage he's put me through.
I don't know what love is or is supposed to mean anymore, but it will never be the same.
I'm emotionally detached from sex because I keep picturing him with her when we are intimate. This is devastating to me because I am a sexual person and I enjoy it and I feel loke he's ruined that for me too.
No matter how much he's changed, I'm stuck in this cycle of betrayal trauma.
Seeing a therapist ever since it happened.
I am so sorry for what you're going through. I am on the opposite side of a similar situation. I was the girl a married man was having an affair with. He told me they had been separated for 2 years. I don't know why men do these things. Now we're all hurt. I'm sick with guilt about how much pain she must be in. So I'm really really sorry.
Maybe you need to take some time for yourself and evaluate if you can ever trust him again. I'm so sorry.
I sadly know what that feels like too