I've tried dealing with people (humans)

I've NEVER belonged anywhere and I wish it didn't matter to me. I wish I could remove that feeling and recycle it for something more useful and less depressing. I'm going to try to accept that some of us are just born to be alone, stop fighting it🤷‍♀️ 

Maybe I'm just supposed to do some stuff, see some stuff and call it a day

Trying to find a "community" has exhausted my bones, plus most the of the time people just aren't ... IDK, not worth all the anxiety