My wife is supposed to be there. Who else? I don't understand. I feel lost. I feel alone. I feel too. Seems to her I have none of these emotions. If I do they do not matter. If they matter they are ignored or cannot be repeated when asked. Resolution is a sci-fi made up imaginary word in our relationship. She laughs, smiles, and you can hear the happiness in her voice at my pain, hurt, failure, or misfortune. When I help her with simple situations she turns it around on me. My stuff is hers, her stuff is hers, and everything belongs to her. When her stuff needs attention then and only then is it "ours" but only temporarily until it's fixed and then it suddenly is all hers again. If I have spending money "it" becomes "ours" but if I need help I have to be worthy. Sorry, still no. Reasons endless. Her endless lies, deception, and exaggeration of events/details. How do I live with it?
Thousands of healthy choices and some how this is where I find myself.
It is what it is. Solution is to find healthy Christian couples I can love like family. I'm sure they don't just read the Bible all day. Hopefully, find some that share a common interest outside the house of worship.