Confused with my ex girlfriend

I'm in a weird spot with my ex who I love still. We hooked up about 4 months ago and since then we have been talking every day, going out and hanging alot. Supporting each other, basically best friends, I've stayed at her place, hung out with her and her mom. Everything was going really well. Last weekend we went out together with mutual friends for her birthday, and I got too drunk and had a low blood sugar episode (I'm type 1 diabetic) After that she got upset and her one friend made things worse.
So I apologized and she started getting into other things. She told me that since we hooked up she hasn't been with anyone else, and that we need to talk. I understand she was angry at the time. I apologize and we talked out that situation,  we still have to have the big talk. We made plans to hang out again. Since then we have been back on talking terms but not as good as it was before, I know she is busy but I feel lower priority than before. All signs point to her wanting to get back together. but I'm afraid to have the conversation
Like in my heart I know she's a good person, and she knows how I feel. So I don't think she would drag me along. She also has doesn't need my friendship, she has plenty of friends. Mentioning that she hasn't been with anyone else since we hooked up. Calling and or texting me daily. Hanging out all the time, I feel like she wants to get back together. But I'm so afraid of rejection I'm afraid to have the conversation as much as I feel she wants to be together deep down, I know that before she was really fighting it ans sticking to her guns. Doesn't help that her one friend is against us getting back together.