Am I just imagining my attraction/gender identity?

I thought I liked guys only until I met a girl who made me question my sexuality. In the end it wasn´t about figuring out if I was bi or not; I realized one likes certain people for who they are, not for what they have between their legs.

Who you love and who you are isn't just some fantasy or your immagination. It's a material reality of how you live in this world! It's about how you perceive yourself. Even if it were just imaginary, attraction and gender are still a wonderful experience when you learn to accept them

Discovering one's attraction and gender identity is a roller coaster, in which we'll never know where we'll end up once the ride ends or even if the ride has an absolute ending to it. No one imagines their attraction (whether that be romantic or sexual) or their gender identity. Personally, I was always hopping from one gender identity and attraction because I never found a personal label that worked for me. One day I was heterosexual, a few months after I thought I was asexual and panromantic, then fast forward a few years later and an epiphany and reading The Invisible Orientation by Julie Sondra Decker that had a lovely chart in it for all forms of sexual and romantic orientations, came to me finally deciding and realizing that I was pansexual and panromantic (one's romantic and sexual orientations don't have to be the same). The same case applied to my gender identity too, I never put too much thought about it, but it wasn't until I watched a bunch of videos of people who shared my same philosophy and feelings towards gender that I realized who I am today. Just take your time when it comes to figuring out who you are. Let the roller coaster take you wherever you feel it needs to take you, or pull the emergency break when you feel like you've found your destination before the ride even ends. Don't worry or stress yourself over trying to figure out who you are; one day you will or maybe one day you won't care about labels and just prefer to live out your life being yourself. Whichever destination you end up, just know that it's your decision to make.

No - how you feel is how you feel. Remember that you know yourself better than anyone else. No matter what anyone else tells you, the things you feel are real and valid. Only you can understand your attraction and your identity, because you're the only you there is. :)