Why is my first thought each morning, how much I hate myself?

My guess is that you're going through some things that are very hard for you to deal with and that are overwhelming you. Your mind doesn't want to feel helpless, so it blames you, because if it's your fault then you must be able to make it stop.

Id recommend writing down positive things in a notebook right next to your bed and every morning look at it, Its not fair of yourself to hate yourself, You have amazing traits just like everyone else does and shouldnt torture yourself like that :)

Sometimes when bad things happen we often blame ourselves which begins to suck the very life out of us causing low self worth ,love and eventually self hatred. when we continue to blame ourselves for all the bad things that happen and challenges we've had to face we wear ourselves down causing mental and emotional exhaustion.Some of us put ourselves down because of some flaw we may have such as feeling obese,awkward, or ugly which is a form of self rejection whilst others worry too much about how other people perceive them. Loving yourself is far more important than what others think of you. Not everyone is going to like, love or even accept you but that doesn't mean you are not worthy of love especially love for yourself!!!

You feel tired in the morning, knowing a rush day is ahead. Just take a deep breath and keep your head up!

Because you are letting it be. Each morning, tell yourself how wonderful you are even don't believe it. Eventually you will agree.

I think you've practiced too much negative self thought that you've began to believe that your thoughts are the truth as opposed to subjective opinion.

The first thought is most of the time something you will always think about. So, if you're thinking about how much you hate yourself all the time, I believe that's what your first thought in the morning would be. I hope you can change the way you're thinking as I am sure you're a lovely person who deserves self-love!

because you feel a lot going through your mind nobody hates you and you should NEVER hate yourself..

Because you haven't given yourself the chance to love yourself. Try going and doing things that make you happy, buy that dress you've wanted, or get the new album you've been wanting. After a while, you'll start to love yourself, bit by bit. It isn't easy but learning to love yourself is the biggest accomplishment there is. And I have faith that anyone can learn. Stay strong!

Its the thing you think about most and something your drawn to. Waking up is a constant reminder that you are awake and you are who you are. If you hate yourself you are just getting a reminder, like an alarm.