What does being bipolar feel like?

I've had a psychosis with manic characteristics but am not bipolar diagnosed. It felt during my psychosis that I was a very important person (married to Jesus). It is a sign of bipolar during mania that you have a blown up self image. I had as well the characterics that I was very happy and lots of energy. I didn't sleep the whole night and was very energetic. Before the manic psychosis (and after as well) I was always very insecure but because of the blown up self image I was suddenly the most secure person in the world.

It is living in the literal moment. Just focusing now on what do I need to do in order to survive. Wake up, exercise, a good diet, focused work, relationships all done in the moment. Not wanting to remember yesterday. Afraid of tomorrow. Sometimes to happy and sometimes to sad. Feeling on top of the world and then feeling as if the world is on my shoulders. Wanting to be something else and yet not even aware of what else might be. Trying to survive to get through each day by just moving. At times having a great hope. At other times such terrible discouragement.

At times it feels like I can do anything and a few days later I feel absolutely useless. I feel so creative and amazing like one of the smartest people in the world then wanting to die for the smallest reason or becoming really upset at something I cannot control. I act irrationally and emotionally and verbally which I know is not the right thing to do but at times I just loose control of my emotions and become enraged and scream and become borderline violent to the ones that I love for reasons that I cannot really explain other than simple frustration at times i become afraid of what I might do in the wrong situation or if I was to be in the wrong place at the wrong time and how easily it could end in mine or someone else being in danger or being hurt and me maybe going to jail and my family having to suffer for all of it.

Not everyone deals with it or 'feels' it in the same way but I can tell you what it's like from my perspective. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 3 years ago when I was 13 years old. At first I didn't want to believe it but soon came to terms with it and agreed to get help. Before I was put on medication, days were really rough emotionally for me. I would have down days in which I would feel very depressed, unmotivated, and hopeless. On up days I felt like I could rule the world. My moods felt like they were always changing and even had multiple highs and lows throughout the day. Thankfully, I'm now on meds and they help a lot. I feel more in control of myself. I still have my days but not nearly as often.

I am new to this and being diagnosed with bipolar 2. I still think and say “if I have this” when I try to talk about it. I have this funny fear that if I get comfortable understanding and accepting it, it suddenly is going to be pulled away from me. I will once again be wondering what the heck is going on, who I am, and what is the point in all of this. However, taking my medication is what helps me come to an understanding somewhat. Before I started my medication my days were horrible. I could go from feeling fine, to yelling, to crying, then feeling like the worst person/mother ever all within a day or hours of waking up. This was my normal for so long and I can’t remember when it started. Sometimes I just woke up feeling mad, irritable, and depressed. I felt like I stayed horribly depressed for so long that now it is hard to tell what is normal. I know my medication is working, but I still fear stepping off into this abyss. I am always waiting. I feel like there is this cloud around me and I will never get my feelings or thoughts across to anyone. I feel fake and alone. I fear not having bipolar and that makes me feel weird that I would want it. I feel most people would look at me and think you don’t have bipolar. I process so much inwardly and only my family truly ever sees the ugly. I just want to understand myself and be happy. I want to be able to live the life I can imagine, but seems so hard to accomplish. A revolving door of my thoughts and wants. I feel trapped in my head, and I am constantly going back over the same things to the point it is embarrassing to talk about with others. I am scared to feel motivated and energized because the ball always drops. I am left depressed and embarrassed, then angry at my life and past decisions that I know I can’t change. Not sure if what I wrote is helpful or not. I am still navigating.

You're laughing one moment, then you're in bed for a week. Everything is sunshine or beyond sunshine for a period of weeks and then your ideas and thoughts go haywire. You start off with great ideas and productivity, but soon you're not sleeping , not eating and not functioning. But you're too busy focusing on stuff you wouldn't see as important if you were well. When you're low, you're low. When you're high, you're high as a kite. Friends notice the mood swings and sometimes have to walk on eggshells around you because they don't know how you're going to react to stuff.

Before I was diagnosed it was confusing. I was depressed often but then have these periods of high energy. I would sleep less, have racing thoughts, and I’ve never heard anyone say this before but it was like I had better access to certain parts of my brain like I’d be able to access my knowledge of difficult words to use. Things weren’t too bad until I turned 19. Then I was suicidally depressed. I had been drinking and doing drugs to manage my moods and it wasn’t working anymore. After a suicide attempt I was hospitalized and diagnosed. I had one major manic episode after that where I didn’t sleep for days, I had delusions of grandeur. I love reading and writing and was convinced it would be super easy for me to submit a pilot and get picked to be a writer on a show. I was also spending a lot of money on my credit card. I also felt like hooking up with someone which is really weird bc I’m demisexual and don’t usually have interest in sex. Then I was hospitalized again. Things got a lot better on meds but it took about 2 years to find the perfect combo that didn’t stunt my emotions and allowed me to feel normalish.

Bipolar disorder is a confusing condition, especially for someone viewing it from the outside. If you have a friend or relative living with bipolar disorder, this person may be reluctant to share how they feel. Because this can make it hard to know how the illness affects them, reading first-hand accounts of other people living with bipolar disorder can help you understand the condition from their perspective. To outsiders looking in, bipolar mania comes in many forms. During these emotional highs, your friend or relative may become full of energy and overly excited about life. Mania can be mild, moderate, or severe, so you may not always link their happiness and elation with a mood disorder. Sometimes, all you see is a fun, optimistic, and upbeat person, the life of the party. But other times, you may notice erratic behaviors with their joyful mood.

Being Biopolar is feeling like you have no control over your emotions, you feel depressed and the next second you are all energetic. You feel sad and then you're happy. Things might be going well and then you're angry for no specific reason. You don't sleep normall, either too less or too much but you still function perfectly, or you might have had a good day but you're still sad and God knows why. It's like your emotions and you're environment (what you're going through), they have no link to each other, no connection whatsoever. You're just out of control and at some point it feels exhausting because not being able to control how you feel is exhausting, a lot.

Being Bipolar feels like one minute you have really high feelings of happiness and excitement and the next you have really low feelings of sadness or anger. You feel like your emotions are controlling you rather than you controlling your emotions. Taking medication or going to counseling to learn how to cope with your feelings is a good way to take control of your feelings. Being diagnosed with Bipolar disorder can make a person feel like they are different but you are just like everyone else, your emotions are just more sensitive than others. There is nothing wrong with being bipolar.

It feels like the entire world is ending around you, enraged in flames and anger but you just want some peace in your heart. It is this constant fight between being apathetic and then having intense passion. Your crazy highs and happiest moments are confusing to others, and your substantial lows are worrisome. The joy and excitement of getting into a new subject cause you to devalue sleep, and want to enjoy in the rapture of pleasure endlessly. The second that joy slows, though, is when the depression hits. It hits you so hard that your entire being has flipped from intensely passionate to apathetic and suicidal.

bipolar is difficult to describe because everyone is different. there is with meds and without meds, knowing what it is and not knowing what it is. bipolar depression feels like a dark rainy day and can last for days weeks or months. it can also feel like a bad breakup which includes sadness and lonliness. your chemicals in your brain do not feel normal, you want to lay in bed for long periods of time and not function and maybe sleep too much. hypomania feels euphoric and you want to function at a very fast pace and behave sometimes without caution to your actions. medication can help to level your chemical imbalance so you don't have the highs and lows. bipolar is a disease you have to manage and you have to stay on your meds and go to a Psychiatrist for medication adjustments because your chemicals change in your brain

It feels like sometimes you want to kick, cry and scream, and other times you want to dance, sing and laugh. It can feel like your brain is fighting with itself and also helping itself. Sometimes all you want to do is lay around and not be social and sometimes you want to go out and talk to everyone about everything. Sometimes even brushing your teeth can be tough, eating even. And other days it’s easy like it’s no big deal. Waking up can be a struggle and going to sleep can be one as well, sometimes it’s all you want to do or something you don’t want to do at all. Getting dressed can be painful or it can be the best thing to do.

I have experienced being misdiagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. The symptoms that my psychiatrist thought displayed this mood disorder were my mania and depressive episodes. This personal experience shows the importance of exploring the diagnosis under the supervision of a trained practitioner. Bipolar disorder is an encompassing term of three types of mood disorder diagnoses, it is worth noting that this diagnosis should not be confused with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). BPD does share mood-specific symptoms such as major depressive episodes and periods of mania. However, BPD is rooted in trauma, whereas Bipolar Disorder has genetic markers in family history worth noting. Both should receive proper treatment from health care providers. In the United States, an individual with Bipolar Disorder will be affected in many ways. Many with variations of this disorder experience long-time drug abuse and substance use disorders, along with high rates of suicidal thoughts and even comorbidities of other mental health conditions. Family members and support groups for supporting individuals with Bipolar Disorder alongside medical treatments are invaluable. Some medications prescribed may initially result in weight gain and changes in sleep patterns. However, to manage the mood swings and potentially psychotic symptoms, most living with Bipolar Disorders find medication to help level out their rapid cycling of mixed symptoms.

Living with BIPOLAR DISORDER is like an emotional roller coaster with EXTREME MOOD SWINGS. In HYPOMANIC EPISODES, overwhelming RAPID THOUGHTS and boundless ENERGY make everything possible. Yet, DEPRESSIVE SYMPTOMS bring SADNESS and persistent SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. RAPID CYCLING between MANIC PHASES and DEPRESSIVE EPISODES is mentally exhausting. Understanding from FAMILY MEMBERS and IDEA of connecting with SUPPORT GROUPS has proven invaluable. Learning about different TYPES OF BIPOLAR DISORDER, like CYCLOTHYMIC DISORDER, with LONG PERIODS OF MANIA and DEPRESSION, has been eye-opening. Collaborating with HEALTH CARE PROVIDERS addressing SLEEP PATTERNS, navigating MIXED EPISODES and PSYCHOTIC SYMPTOMS manages my mental health. FAMILY HISTORY and SUBSTANCE USE DISORDERS added complexity to BIPOLAR SYMPTOMS lead to SUBSTANCE ABUSE and WEIGHT GAIN. Finding proper TREATMENT and maintaining emotional balance with this FORM OF BIPOLAR DISORDER is a constant effort. Ultimately, it's a journey of self-discovery, resilience, and seeking SUPPORT in understanding and managing this complex condition for stability.