Nothing seems to fit me

My psychological problems go deep. It’s like everything is a trigger warning to me. I’ve been hurt so bad. Do I want to talk about having to be perfect? No. Do I want to talk about rape? No. Do I want to talk about psychological abuse? No. Do I want to talk about periods when a doctor destroyed me? No. Do I want to spend another 10 years trying to fix a skin condition that 💲? No. Do I want to take another job where people are such bullies? No! Do I like going out dining and socializing? Yes! Until they start staring at me like I’m disease! Get it! Believe me I’m normal and with some help I can survive.